No I'm not depressed.
I just want a quiet Christmas. I really do. Kel and I decorated our tree. I hung up my Christmas stocking and cards...My little Christmas figurines are out (Thanks to Judy and Hallmark), but that's all I want to do. Honestly. I appreciate the symbolism of this holiday, but that's it. I've done no Christmas shopping and I've made no Christmas requests (unless you want to offer me a a job for Christmas). I did receive my first Christmas ornament from a friend (thanks Scottie!!!!) and that's hanging on the tree...So YAY! I have an ornament to call my own!
So yes for the first time in 28 years, I will be chillin by myself for Christmas. I mean, my best friend wants to come over but she doesn't want to follow my rules for not mentioning the holiday, so she'll end up being locked out. (You know it's true Gaetane!) lol
I just had a thought. Sometimes our minds and I bodies act a certain way because they prepare for something. I'm not depressed, I'm not angry, I just don't want to be around people tomorrow. That doesn't make me antisocial, I mean...I do want to do First Night for New Years Eve, but for some reason...Christmas = alone. So now I'm wondering, what does my mind and body know that I don't know? Does that sound weird? But it happens all the time with us. For example, all of a sudden you notice that you are sleeping more. You don't understand why, you've been sleeping regularly and sleeping well at that. You haven't changed activities, yet you find yourself drowsy during the day and taking long naps on the weekends. You wonder why...
Until you get hit with a cold or an infection. That's right, your mind was telling your body to fight the bacteria that's trying to invade your system. So in order for your body to do it's job, you needed to sleep more. You needed to rest more and not be running around everywhere. That's an example of your mind and body knowing something that you don't.
Okay everyone chill! I'm not dying! Oh goodness, I just had an image of my cellphone ringing because the 3 people who read this blog religiously are freaking out. Then those three will tell three more and those three will tell three more and so on...
Gosh, you know what? My social circle has shrunk DRASTICALLY. I remember when I was 20, my friend Maya said to me, "As you get older, your social circle shrinks." I thought she was insane because while at Northeastern University...I was popular. A huge university and a lot of people either knew me or of me. So every now and then, my friends would accuse me of knowing everyone. I'm not sure if I acted this out for y'all...But I'll do it again because it's hilarious to me.
Friend: Gosh Max! Do you know everyone?!
Me: What? Don't be silly! I don't know everyone!
Random Person: Hey Max!
Me: What's up homey! (Most likely I didn't know their name...What? I'm bad with names!)
Friend: See? You know everyone!
Me: I do NOT know everyone!
(Random person comes up to me and kisses my cheek)
Random person: Hey Max!
Me: Hey (instert name here, Hey if they are kissing my cheek...You darn tootin' I know their name!)!!
Friend: Right, so you don't know everyone! (rolls eyes)
Me: Just because three people said hi to me, that doesn't mean I know everyone on this campus!
(3-5 random people walk by and greet me)
Friend: (giggling) Just give up! You're proving me right!
(This is when I get a little bit quiet and wait for us to reach a less populated area)
Me: I don't know everyone!
(My friend and I wait for someone to greet me, but no one does)
Me: SEE!!!! (smiles big)
Friend: Whatever!
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Hmmm...
I just took a long hiatus doing this and now I lost the urge to finish this, so it's ending now. I'll return tomorrow! Tomorrow I shall talk about disturbing Christmas songs!
Until then faithful readers...
Love, Peace, and Hair Grease!
1 comment:
Guuuuuuurl, I thought I was the only non-Christmas person around! For years I've disliked Christmas. I talkin- don't say nothing to me, don't ask me what's on my wish list, don't even give me a card! This year, I'm a lot better- or trying to be anyway. It's hard for me, after all I was pretty much a scrooge for big chunk of my life! I just really don't like how Christmas is all about gifts and the whole "what you gonna get me?" syndrome. It bugs me that the same people who talk about "the season for loving and family and good will towards men" are the same people who grumble (quite loudly) when you don't give them a present. It's also hard when you're trapped in a house full of people, and groups of other people stop by throughout the day, and everyone wants to see you and say "merry Christmas, where do you work now, how's life, are you still in school, your hair used to be so long and now it's so short, blah blah blah" and sit in your house for hours and drink lots of alcohol and eat your food-- or is that only at my house? Anyway, as long as you're not depressed, you go ahead and have your solo day, girl!
And in that creepy songs blog entry- you've GOT to touch on "Walking in a Winter Wonderland" That song has the lyrics (and correct me if I'm wrong) "He'll say are you married, you'll say no man, but YOU can do the job when you're in town" What's up with that? Sounds pretty dirty to me! I would love to read your opinion on that one. Man this comment was kinda long, I probably should have blogged it, huh?
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