Balls to the Wall!

Have you ever just gotten to the point to where you're just like...

"This is what I want and I'm going for it"?

Well after the beautiful and talented Ms. Mayari S-H asked me to write 2 monologues for her upcoming meeting, that's when I decided...

Max, it's Balls to the Wall TIME!!!!

I know that I don't have balls, but there isn't really a female equivalent and I'm not putting my breasts on anything! It's bad enough that in 2 years...Well let just say:

Insert boob here.

*holds breath*

>>>SQUISH<<<

*whimpers*

So for the sake of my sanity (or insanity in my case) I'm just going to use balls and walls. I've already got 2 of Maya's monologes banged out...How? Well 2 of them are coming from my blog. She says that she needs something sassy and funny...*looks innocent* What? Can't a sistah like her own work?! lol

I feel NO fear! There isn't a little voice predicting failure. Heck the fact that Maya is willing to trust her acting career in my hands is an honor that I won't take lightly. As a matter of fact she said, "Max my LIFE is in your hands!" Feel the pressure? I'm still calm as a cucumber. I'm confident in my writing abilities, but I'm also confident in my abilities to convey emotions. I know Maya (We've been friends for 10 years now) so it's all good! I will give her two rockin' monologues! In addition I will trust that she will bring my words to life and leave that agent sitting there with his/her mouth opened! In a way, it's a double trust issue here, you know? When you are an artist, the hardest part is letting someone interpret your work...And when you are an actor, the hardest part is trusting that the writer is competent enough to bring out your positive strengths and give you something that's open enough for you to experiment. Someone take my temperature...I think I've got a fever...

A fever for writing!!! I'm going to display my monolouges on my Deviant Art page when I'm finished. For those who don't know the address:

My Deviant Art Page

I'll announce their debut in a blog...lol!

Oh and today!

Okay, I need to slow down cuz again, I'm tired and it's gloomy outside, plus I'm a little sad due to a slight situation with someone that I truly love so my balance is slowly going out of whack here. *breathes*

I wrote the following letter to the editor of a new free newspaper (BostonNOW) that's coming out for the first time on Tuesday, April 17th:

"Dear John,

Hello! My name is (I insterted my full first name), but only my mom can call me that. Well when she's mad. You can call me Maxine. I am writing you because this is the second day that I've heard about your newspaper. Yesterday, I was so excited that I was hoping to find an email address somewhere so I can write an actual person and ask if there were possible positions. Today I found yours. I could go into the "Writing is My Life" monologue, but I'll protect you from that, just this once.

Are there any positions at your office? I know that you have blogging opportunities and believe me I will sign up once I send this email, but I was wondering, does your office have actual positions?

Any information that you are able to offer will be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

(inserted my full name here)"

His response? Well I have that too!!! Check it out:

"Hi, Maxine:

What a delightful introduction!

I was taken aback by the return address name (what a mouthful, I thought), but you certainly made it an asset in your intro.

Unfortunately, we have filled our open positions, but I'd still enjoy meeting you.

Now is not the time, however, as we're frantic getting ready to publish. Why don't you drop me a line in a couple of weeks when we're settling into a routine.

I do encourage you, though, to go post a blog on Monday when we launch our website. I look forward to seeing your stuff online.

Thanks again for your interest."

My response to him? OF COURSE I HAVE IT!!!!! Here:

"Hello John,

Okay, I will contact you the week of April 30th! Don't forget about me! I wouldn't want you staring at my email and thinking, "Why is this strange person with a ridiculous first name contacting me?"

Thanks so much!

Maxine"

So I will have a meeting with an editor of a newspaper. Balls to the Wall Baby! Balls to the Wall!!

Hmmmm...Perhaps I just like saying balls? *giggles* I just said balls...lol.

Yesterday I decided that I had two choices:

1. Fight for my dreams to be a writer and a deejay

2. Go back to Higher Education and settle

*Audience members start to scream, "Pick door number 1!"* Of course I picked 1...Do you NOT know me?! Keep me in your prayers y'all! And oh yea, just because I'm blogging for BostonNOW that doesn't mean I'm going to leave you guys alone! I'll definitely post links here and even do special ones just for you all!

I love you all!

Thanks to those who constantly support me!

Thanks to those who support me when they can!

Thanks to those who have absolutely no faith in me and my abilities at all...You make me determined.

Please excuse me, there is a site that I need to sign up on!

To my Faithful Five and the rest of you SLACKERS I say,

Love, Peace, and Hair Grease...

P.S. It's one thing to dream, it's another to make it a REALITY!