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For those who may not know this, I work on a website. It's a funky site. I started out about 2-3 years ago as a regular member. I wanted to find a place to play cool games and there it was! I got to meet the makers of the site and they were both cool guys so I started to help them out a bit. It started with small tasks and after 2 years, I was finally made an administrator...Which was totally cool in my book. lol

But I'm not here to brag...I sorta need to vent and vent in a hardcore manner. It could be because my sleep was interrupted by a disturbing dream that had me die twice or it could be because, as my friend Gen put it, it's my time o' the month. lol

In either case, I still need to vent. You see, this site started out as a fun kids' site. Adults were there and we liked it because we could regress a lil bit, pretend to be super beings, and interact with each other. Those were the days I tell you. We never took anything to heart and the atmosphere was completely light...We knew each other and the entire idea was, "I KNOW 'Greg' didn't mean that in a serious way because that's not how he is!" The problem is, as the site grew, it became harder for us to get to know each other personally. I know for me, one of my old yahoo instant messenger ids was retired because I had too many people on there talking to me. I could write or create while talking to 5 or more people. It was completely hard, I couldn't take it any longer so I go on there only when people ask me to do so...

But I'm not here to talk about that...

Why is it that adults have to spoil something so innocent? As much as my friends tell me that this isn't true, I still wonder if I'm also part of the problem? When you tease someone you barely know, they are going to take it seriously and explode. In addition, I don't know if you all know this but I can pretty much push anyone's button. I could make Mother Theresa reach out and swing at me...I just have that personality. In real life I don't do that unless pushed to the extreme but on the site, I let my playful nature play...Because it's a game...Right? Well, I don't think most folks know that I'm a very playful person AND I don't know how these folks live...

Some of them *puts on psychologist hat* really seem as if they have a bad life. It's as if people spend their time picking on them so they come to the site to be the big bad person who picks on others. It's their way of sticking it to those who hurt them on a daily basis. Now add my playful teasing nature to this situation...What do you have?

That's right an explosion. In the beginning I was SO careful with how I interacted with folks but they kept poking me playfully. lol But those were people in the past, most of them have left and we even had a few who passed away, which was painful...

At this moment, I'm stepping away from the social aspect of the site. I know...I know..."Max is that POSSIBLE?!" Yes, lol, it is. After grad school, I've pretty much been tamed. I guess it was the 3 years living on my own working full time and going to school full time. If you wanted to get good grades, you couldn't spend too much time socializing...It was nearly impossible! *smiles*

Somehow I blame myself for some of the issues on the site and because of that, I'm going to remove myself. If anyone from that site is reading this, let me ask you something...

If you were a kid and you were reading all of this, what would you think?

I know if I placed myself in their shoes, I wouldn't feel comfortable at all. Heck I would leave a find a child friendly site that didn't allow adults to come play. lol Seriously...

Everyone, including myself, need to think about the purpose of the site and work towards it...If you can't do that, then why are you on an adult site? There are adult sites all over the internet...Join one of those.

Pensively Yours,

Max