"You don't ask for help...You're so proud!"
"You are a lone ranger."
"You are so anti-social."
"You are the only one in the family who doesn't have a traditional family frame of mind."
I hear this a lot. Those statements make me think:
Just because I don't ask for help, how does that make me proud? I may not come out and announce to the world that I need help but that doesn't mean I'm not quietly asking for help from those who can help me. How does that make me proud?
How can a lone ranger have as many friends as I do?
Anti-social? I'm sorry, when you work with a bunch of people and you're constantly talking and moving, when you get home, the last thing you want to do is talk...How is THAT anti-social?
If my two older brothers are into the traditional family and I'm not, what happened during my life? Could it be that they always had their father around whereas mine was MIA? That's a possibility...
Everyone has a thought about who we are. It can come from a first impression or it could come from the side that we choose to show them, but does that make it valid? Is it accurate?
In many cases it's not.
Yet people constantly like to say those things to me...
And they wonder why I ignore them or stare at them with glassy eyes or with my mouth opened.
Pfft...
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I see how this works...
A few days have gone by and I haven't written in my blog but there's the thing...
I've THOUGHT about writing in my blog...
I've even thought about topics. I had some ideas about what I do care about:
1. Teens
2. Female weight issues --For lack of a better term
There's more and here's the thing...
I'm not passionate about those topics. Sure, I like talking to teens and if there is any way that I can help them get on the right path, then I will, especially the little girls. When I was a teen we had positive and negative messages in our faces but sheesh, it was the 90's so the majority of the images seemed to be positive while now, EVERYTHING seems to have a negative connotation...
As for the 2nd one, I'm just tired of seeing the media harp on weight loss/gain especially in the female actresses. I know, they are in the public's eye, but good grief, that's their life...Their bodies, and not everyone is meant to be a petite woman.
Some of us are blessed with gorgeous curves and we should rock them proudly. I remember the night that I got pissed at Conan O'Brien and honestly I have never been upset with a night time host, ever, but the way that he kept harping on Kristie Allen's weight gain...
I was like, ENOUGH! Since then, I haven't watched Conan loyally.
With a normal woman, if you gain weight, you can easily abstain from taking pictures. If you are a celebrity, everywhere you go there is a chance that your picture will get snapped. So they get to see images of themselves in the magazines and honestly, I swear that the magazine editors pick the worse pictures of these women just to humiliate them more!
So guess what happens? These women go through drastic measures to get their weight back down just so they can end public ridicule.
I know that you are saying that these are grownups and that ultimately they have the choice to say no but then they come up with articles on:
"How I lost 40 pounds in 1 Month!"
Or even:
"I felt so fat so I went from 120 to 104!"
Who reads magazines? Who are affected the MOST by these images?
(See #1)
Hmmm...Perhaps I am a bit more passionate than I thought
I've THOUGHT about writing in my blog...
I've even thought about topics. I had some ideas about what I do care about:
1. Teens
2. Female weight issues --For lack of a better term
There's more and here's the thing...
I'm not passionate about those topics. Sure, I like talking to teens and if there is any way that I can help them get on the right path, then I will, especially the little girls. When I was a teen we had positive and negative messages in our faces but sheesh, it was the 90's so the majority of the images seemed to be positive while now, EVERYTHING seems to have a negative connotation...
As for the 2nd one, I'm just tired of seeing the media harp on weight loss/gain especially in the female actresses. I know, they are in the public's eye, but good grief, that's their life...Their bodies, and not everyone is meant to be a petite woman.
Some of us are blessed with gorgeous curves and we should rock them proudly. I remember the night that I got pissed at Conan O'Brien and honestly I have never been upset with a night time host, ever, but the way that he kept harping on Kristie Allen's weight gain...
I was like, ENOUGH! Since then, I haven't watched Conan loyally.
With a normal woman, if you gain weight, you can easily abstain from taking pictures. If you are a celebrity, everywhere you go there is a chance that your picture will get snapped. So they get to see images of themselves in the magazines and honestly, I swear that the magazine editors pick the worse pictures of these women just to humiliate them more!
So guess what happens? These women go through drastic measures to get their weight back down just so they can end public ridicule.
I know that you are saying that these are grownups and that ultimately they have the choice to say no but then they come up with articles on:
"How I lost 40 pounds in 1 Month!"
Or even:
"I felt so fat so I went from 120 to 104!"
Who reads magazines? Who are affected the MOST by these images?
(See #1)
Hmmm...Perhaps I am a bit more passionate than I thought
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Me and Documentaries
There are many good things about being a freelance writer, the main thing is when I want to take a break, I can take a break from working. Right now, I'm watching When the Levees Broke a film created by Spike Lee. It is about the New Orleans residents after Katrina. (The following blog isn't about this documentary)
Normally I am not allowed to watch documentaries because I always get upset. When I get upset, my boyfriend has to deal with the mood so I allow for him to tell me, "Baby, you are not allowed to watch documentaries anymore." Notice that I said "allow."
There was once a time when I was passionate about everything. I wanted to change everything! I wanted to right all the wrongs in the world but something happens to people who notice all the wrong in the world...
They don't live. When you're consumed with all that is wrong, it's hard to smile. It's hard to enjoy life because you're thinking, "How can I be happy when there is SO much injustice in the world?!" I'm not saying that we should go around ignorant and happy but in general, we are more valuable to ourselves and others when we are balanced mentally and physically.
Now, without documentaries, I find myself being able to breath easily. Also, it allowed me to take a look at the types of documentaries that I used to watch and I came to a conclusion...
I don't appreciate my feelings being jerked around. You can teach me about your cause without trying to make me mad or sad.
I wonder, if it's even possible? Even commercials go out of their way to either make us very angry or sad. I saw a commercial that is created so we can save the children in poor areas. I watched as they gave a boy a picture of his dead parents and he cried. Wasn't it sad enough to know that this poor boy's parents died leaving him to take care of his younger brothers? Wasn't it sad enough to see where they lived? Wouldn't I want to help him out in based on what I already know or am I SO heartless that I need to see a visual of this 11 year old boy breaking down on screen before I pick up the phone and call?! Why do these people feel the need to toy with my emotions to earn my support for their cause?
The same goes for documentaries. This is why I cannot watch them any longer. My emotions are not available for some stranger to toy with like a canister of play dough.
Peace out,
Max
Monday, May 04, 2009
May 4, 2009
I'm not sure if I'm going to begin my blogs like this, but I'm only doing it this way because I am lost. Should my blogs turn into something serious? Should I keep it funny and entertaining? Should there be a theme?
I only ask these questions because usually when it comes time for me to apply for a writing job, I am always at a loss for writing samples. My boyfriend tells me to use the samples that I do for websites like www.urbaniacs.com and www.popmundo.com but in my opinion, those are fun sites. He didn't understand me until I asked him if he would hand in a doodle for an artistic job that he wanted. He understood. I guess he's a bit biased, but then again, love will do that to you.
Let me tell you how it always goes down when I want a writing job. I write the email or fill out the application. I check it over until I'm satisfied and then I think, "What will I send in for a writing sample?!" I look at my stories and usually I tell myself no. I look at my blog and I think that while it does show off my writing talents, some of my blogs might be scary to those PC loving and using people...
They are the ones who tend to be employed. While the application/email creation takes about 20 minutes to do, choosing a writing sample takes much longer! Sometimes it takes 2 days!!! Then I start thinking about this blog. I think about how I never use it anymore and then I think about how I could use it to further my writing career. I also wonder if I am wasting my time creating blogs like these and if I am living up to my full writing potential...
Do you understand why it can take 2 days?
Finally I wonder if there is something that I could blog about that could help me in this crazy world as well as others. I call this final phase, "Are my talents being used to make a better world or are they being wasted?" Then I ponder that. Usually my boyfriend weighs in and says, "You should start podcasting and writing more! Write about something that you care about a lot!"
That causes a few more hours of thought because I'm not sure if I care about things anymore. When I was 20, I was passionate about EVERYTHING. I'm overexaggerating. Not everything but I was always doing something. Now at 30, I wonder if I am still passionate?
Maybe that should be my discovery. I can't write or speak about anything unless I am passionate about them.
It is time to find my passion! You can help if you like but only if you have constructive things to say. If you don't, please move on! lol
Peace!
Maxi
I only ask these questions because usually when it comes time for me to apply for a writing job, I am always at a loss for writing samples. My boyfriend tells me to use the samples that I do for websites like www.urbaniacs.com and www.popmundo.com but in my opinion, those are fun sites. He didn't understand me until I asked him if he would hand in a doodle for an artistic job that he wanted. He understood. I guess he's a bit biased, but then again, love will do that to you.
Let me tell you how it always goes down when I want a writing job. I write the email or fill out the application. I check it over until I'm satisfied and then I think, "What will I send in for a writing sample?!" I look at my stories and usually I tell myself no. I look at my blog and I think that while it does show off my writing talents, some of my blogs might be scary to those PC loving and using people...
They are the ones who tend to be employed. While the application/email creation takes about 20 minutes to do, choosing a writing sample takes much longer! Sometimes it takes 2 days!!! Then I start thinking about this blog. I think about how I never use it anymore and then I think about how I could use it to further my writing career. I also wonder if I am wasting my time creating blogs like these and if I am living up to my full writing potential...
Do you understand why it can take 2 days?
Finally I wonder if there is something that I could blog about that could help me in this crazy world as well as others. I call this final phase, "Are my talents being used to make a better world or are they being wasted?" Then I ponder that. Usually my boyfriend weighs in and says, "You should start podcasting and writing more! Write about something that you care about a lot!"
That causes a few more hours of thought because I'm not sure if I care about things anymore. When I was 20, I was passionate about EVERYTHING. I'm overexaggerating. Not everything but I was always doing something. Now at 30, I wonder if I am still passionate?
Maybe that should be my discovery. I can't write or speak about anything unless I am passionate about them.
It is time to find my passion! You can help if you like but only if you have constructive things to say. If you don't, please move on! lol
Peace!
Maxi
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